A journey to Health

So after my doctor appt last week she had said no make up for a month to see if that is whats causing all my eye issues. So I look like a homeless bum with nice clothes. If only I didn't work in an office this would be so much easier! It'll be good to eliminate if make up was the reason though... Then I had my shot as usual last thursday. I felt a swelling and numbness in my face. I didn't see it as a big deal, I usually feel a little something but it always goes away a while after the shot. So I didn't bother to tell the nurse. Well it got worse as the day went on and stayed that way until I woke up Sunday morning. This makes me very, very nervous to get my shot again next month! Of course I emailed her today, after some back and forth I will start taking my allegra again at night before day of and after the shot. If I swell again after the next shot, my only options are to take a steroid the day of the shot, or quit the shot all together. And I don't know if I ...

Today I had my follow up with Dr. Nakai. GOD would I hate her job. You have mere minutes to listen to a patient and figure out whats up with them. Physically and mentally. Ha. When I described my eye flares, looking like I got punched in the face etc. She thought it out thinking it possibly could be make up, but after some discussion determined it probably is the hives, but to maybe try to do no eye make up for a month. In discussion over my extreme fatigue, there's not much you can do about it. Just try to not over exert myself, aka, slow down at the gym. Which is true. Those days where I'm feeling great, I ruin it by DOING ALL THE THINGS. It flares me up and fatigues me. I in general need the rest anyways, so the truth is, I need to not work out so hard. :( this makes me sad as working out has caused me to lose weight and feel good in general, but I will listen to these warning bells of fatigue. THEN, with all this information at hand, she suggests again to lower one o...

Thoughts and words coming from my mouth lately. "I'm sick of looking like I got punched in the face!" "I'm sick of feeling like shit!" "I'm SO TIRED ALL OF THE TIME"   "I want to be able to DO EVERYTHING and have energy!" "WHEN is this going to end?" "I miss the days when I didn't have this problem/I was indestructable! (or so I thought)" I said to Bo, I don't remember my godmother, when she was suffering for years from cancer until she passed...complain.... He said your grandmother never did either. OK FINE. I AM NOT A SAINT LIKE THEM AND I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO HAVE A NORMAL HUMAN BEING LIFE. I think it didn't help that my doctor said we might be able to do less shots in 6 months. It sounded so promising. I think I'm going to see her sooner than in a month though, to help my complaining. She will probably do what everyone else says to do and tells me to se...